Woot!!!

So I just wanted to say that I got my first follower today!!! Gah that makes me so happy that someone liked my dribble enough to follow me :) so thank you nasimiyu for making my day!!!

Yesterday was pretty darn amazing and this is going to turn into a tmi post sort of...I won't go into much detai. But anyways the ride from Vermont to my school in New York was pretty good I just ranted to my bf Goober about family and break and such...omg my dad and i also calculated all the child support checks my mother has been cashing and I haven't seen her since I was 5 years old. Total she owes me $117,720 that's a lot of cash and probably only $500 went to me over 18 years yet I'm one of her beloved daughters. Makes me sick to know she gave birth to me. Anyways so the ride up was nice and when we got home he wanted to be naughty which I was all for haha. It was different this time tho typically it's difficult to have sex with him because I wanna know what feels good to him and I wanna do what he wants to do along with what I do but he always says I don't know so sex always just typically feels like we are fucking. This time tho it was so different. We had great communication and I felt like we were really connecting and damn it was so satisfying. After we got high and watched dexter and don't hate me but we are McDonald's it was soo good and I was so high I couldn't help myself. But we cuddled the rest of the day and just spent it together even though his friends/our housemates came home. I don't know I just really enjoyed yesterday.

Today is good so far I'm in class which isn't fun but I guess it's interesting... I'm restarting the SGD. I think that being at school will help me get back into controlling my eating and I have like no real money or campus dinning dollars so I can use that as an excuse to why I'm not eating as much. Plus goober wants to start eating heathy so hopefully more veggies!!!! I love veggies! Not all though just some but quite a few haha.

So far today I've only had a few sips of coffee and I'm currently drinking black tea with skinny girl stevia in it. I've also had my multi vitamin and some meta mucil  so out of 400 calories today I'm at 45. I think I'm going to have a morning star grilled veggie burger and some broccoli with teriyaki sauce... I hope it's yummy but that would put dinner at 160 calories which leaves me with 195 left for the day so I'm not sure if I do or do not want to eat that...I'm going to try not to but I'm not sure how goober is going to be at dinner and how easy it'll be for me to eat what I want....either way I'll stay in my limit as long as I don't munch haha I'll post later how the day goes

Xoxo
Britt<3

Sorry about not updating my post last night I had to much to eat that it wasn't funny and I'm afraid to step on the scale this morning. In other news I'm going back to school today which I'm not excited for because we have this week left of classes and then it's finals week and I have no idea how I'm going to get everything I need to done I really screwed myself over ugh!  I slept so badly last night I feel like all I did was toss and turn. Another thing that sucks about going back to school is I have to leave my family and pets and I love my kitties.
So on Monday I'm starting the SGD but I don't think I wanna eat more then 500 calories today so let's see how much self control I have after like a week of binging. Fingers crossed. So this morning while on MPA I found out there was a site called fantasyfeeder.com or something like that and I went on it and I think I wanna puke now it's just a site about people who love being fat and are trying to get bigger. Good for them for loving their bodies while being so huge but no thanks that's not for me I could never let myself get that big let alone take nudes and put them online... I just realized I lost the back to my earring damn I hate when this happens.... Sorry off topic but yea if you need any motivation to stay on track go on that site it'll help.

Xoxo
Britt<3

Oops

Sorry I seem to have forgotten about my blog. Anyways to recap these past few months I've been away at school which has been fun but also suckish. I just can't wait for the semester to be over!!! This semester was the first one that I've actually been living in the same house as my boyfriend. We have been together for a little over two years now and I say all in all its been pretty good we mostly fight about what we are going to eat for dinner. Typically I make my own dinner since it's nothing he likes but lately he's been wanting us to have the same thing, which makes it hard to stay on my diet because he likes really rich fatty carb loaded food. But on a good note it seems that I haven't gained any weight this semester although I was expecting to be HUGE but I've stayed at about 117lbs woot! I need to get a scale for school because not knowing kills me. Anyways I hope everyone had a happy thanksgiving I would say I did pretty well I mean I ate but I had self control and I left a bite of everything on my plate and when we had pie I only ate the insides of a tiny piece and left most of the pumpkin pie. I started the skinny girl diet Monday but since the holiday and being home I think I'm going to restart it. Only problem is I won't know if I'm loosing anything I mean we have a scale in the locker room but it's one of those really old ones where you have to move the little blocks so it's hard to tell... Maybe I'll start getting into running again that way I can check my weight during that time...hmm things to think about. Anyways I go back to school tomorrow and I have so much work that I don't wanna do. Wish me luck at finishing the semester(2weeks) strong!

Intake today so far is 233 I still have 417 left I'll post my breakdown later tonight.

Xoxo
Britt<3