Ok so I know that I forgot to post yesterday
but that was because my bf was all over me... not in the good way though. So he
knows that I've lost a little less than 10 lbs since summer started and
yesterday when I was trying to bring up my college bill he saw that I had a
blog up about Ana. I don't think
that I am exactly Ana but I do find reading other peoples
blogs interesting although he would think that's messed up...but I do want to
be a psychologist so I feel it would make sense that what these girls have to
say is interesting, or at least that's what my excuse is going to be if I ever
do have to show him a blog. But anyways after he saw the blog he quickly said
he had to go to the bathroom and took his phone. It made me wonder if he was
looking up the blog name because later on I was trying to get him to split half
a biscotti with me because I really did not want the whole thing. I'm not
really into eating sweets because they make my teeth hurt. But anyways his
response was there only 100 calories I think you can afford that. Like what the
fuck that wasn't even why I wanted to split it.gah! He's also
been acting kind of strange he made me drink a beer with him and eat with him
today which I wasn't excited about. His mom also watched me eat dinner last
night which I thought was really strange maybe she thought I don't eat
enough... I hope not because I spend way too much time at their house.
Today I tried to do something nice and
ended up getting locked out of their house by my bfs sister...
what happened was she came into the living room where I was reading a book
while my bf was at work. The book is ok its called thinandbeautiful.com I had to read up to the
7th chapter to the part where it starts getting semi interesting. Anyways his
sister tells me that her new bf is coming over and I assumed that she wanted
privacy due to the fact that her parents were not home and that she was in her
nightgown and short silk robe. her nightgowns are from Victoria Secret if that
tells you anything so to give them privacy I left the house and went for an
hour walk, the only reason I was out that long was because I kind of got lost
:/ I eventually found my way back to both the front and the garage door locked.
Thank god my bf was getting out early that day and I knew the mom was coming
home soon. Once the mom got home she felt bad and put a key outside for me incase I
ever got locked out again she’s so cute I love her <3
Oh I think I forgot to mention earlier
that I had an interview Monday. It was for charlotte russe. the
interview was a group one and the manager talked the entire time and hardly
have any of us talk to her which I thought was strange and most of what
she said I felt like they would tell you after they hired you not at the
interview. It worked for me since I was so nervous and probably would have
stumbled over my words and made a fool of myself.
Yesterday morning when I weighed myself
the scale said 124.? I don’t remember the point haha. seeing 124 really made me upset because I didn’t know
what I did wrong since I feel I really didn’t eat that bad I was well within my 500
calorie limit. Anyways I weighed myself again today and it said I was 122.4! I
guess I’m just fluctuating way too much and I am
basing most of my progress on how my clothes that would get past my thighs are
doing as I lose weight. I hope to lose another two pounds this week at least. I have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow and I
wonder what I weighed last time I went in because I don’t want
them to get concerned so early into my diet about how much I've lost
but then again I have seen them since January so maybe they won’t pay attention. Wow
sorry for the long post!
Monday’s total intake :( went over)
Beef stir fry (260)
Couscous (150) I over counted for this one I’m not
sure how much I really had I just know less then this
Strawberries (49)
Had a cornbread mini loaf (47)
Biscotti (100)
Lemonade beer (126)
Skinnygirl popcorn (25)
My total intake for calories was
757. Omg that's so
much I can’t believe I’m such a fat pig. They should start
calling me piggy because that’s exactly what I am I’m a
fucking fat disgusting ugly pig!
Today’s total intake:
Potato bread (90)
Egg (90)
Low fat Swiss cheese (25) I had only a small piece
Butter (35)
Broccoli (25)
Chicken noodle soup (200)
So my total intake was 465 and I have 35
left but I feel like I may have miscounted so that’s my
buffer for today. I've noticed that I don't get hungry during
the day anymore only at night around 5 or 6pm. except for yesterday I hadn't
eaten anything past 7 the past few days and I wake up around 10 or 11am so that’s like
a 15 hour fast every time right? If so yay! Maybe
tomorrow I try a 24 hour fast but I am going to drink tea and a ton of water. We’ll
see how that goes... wish me luck!!!
Xoxo
Britt<3
