Two posts in one

Ok so I know that I forgot to post yesterday but that was because my bf was all over me... not in the good way though. So he knows that I've lost a little less than 10 lbs since summer started and yesterday when I was trying to bring up my college bill he saw that I had a blog up about Ana. I don't think that I am exactly Ana but I do find reading other peoples blogs interesting although he would think that's messed up...but I do want to be a psychologist so I feel it would make sense that what these girls have to say is interesting, or at least that's what my excuse is going to be if I ever do have to show him a blog. But anyways after he saw the blog he quickly said he had to go to the bathroom and took his phone. It made me wonder if he was looking up the blog name because later on I was trying to get him to split half a biscotti with me because I really did not want the whole thing. I'm not really into eating sweets because they make my teeth hurt. But anyways his response was there only 100 calories I think you can afford that. Like what the fuck that wasn't even why I wanted to split it.gah! He's also been acting kind of strange he made me drink a beer with him and eat with him today which I wasn't excited about. His mom also watched me eat dinner last night which I thought was really strange maybe she thought I don't eat enough... I hope not because I spend way too much time at their house. 

Today I tried to do something nice and ended up getting locked out of their house by my bfs sister... what happened was she came into the living room where I was reading a book while my bf was at work. The book is ok its called thinandbeautiful.com I had to read up to the 7th chapter to the part where it starts getting semi interesting. Anyways his sister tells me that her new bf is coming over and I assumed that she wanted privacy due to the fact that her parents were not home and that she was in her nightgown and short silk robe. her nightgowns are from Victoria Secret if that tells you anything so to give them privacy I left the house and went for an hour walk, the only reason I was out that long was because I kind of got lost :/ I eventually found my way back to both the front and the garage door locked. Thank god my bf was getting out early that day and I knew the mom was coming home soon. Once the mom got home she felt bad and put a key outside for me incase I ever got locked out again she’s so cute I love her <3 

Oh I think I forgot to mention earlier that I had an interview Monday. It was for charlotte russe. the interview was a group one and the manager talked the entire time and hardly have any of us talk to her which  I thought was strange and most of what she said I felt like they would tell you after they hired you not at the interview. It worked for me since I was so nervous and probably would have stumbled over my words and made a fool of myself. 

Yesterday morning when I weighed myself the scale said 124.? I don’t remember the point haha. seeing 124 really made me upset because I didn’t know what I did wrong since I feel I really didn’t eat that bad I was well within my 500 calorie limit. Anyways I weighed myself again today and it said I was 122.4! I guess I’m just fluctuating way too much and I am basing most of my progress on how my clothes that would get past my thighs are doing as I lose weight. I hope to lose another two pounds this week at least. I have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow and I wonder what I weighed last time I went in because I don’t want them to get concerned so early into my diet about how much I've lost but then again I have seen them since January so maybe they won’t pay attention. Wow sorry for the long post!

Monday’s total intake :( went over)

Beef stir fry (260)

Couscous (150) I over counted for this one I’m not sure how much I really had I just know less then this

Strawberries (49)

Had a cornbread mini loaf (47)

Biscotti (100)

Lemonade beer (126)

Skinnygirl popcorn (25)  

 My total intake for calories was 757. Omg that's so much I can’t believe I’m such a fat pig. They should start calling me piggy because that’s exactly what I am I’m a fucking fat disgusting ugly pig!

Today’s total intake:

Potato bread (90)

Egg (90)

Low fat Swiss cheese (25) I had only a small piece

Butter (35)

Broccoli (25)

Chicken noodle soup (200)

So my total intake was 465 and I have 35 left but I feel like I may have miscounted so that’s my buffer for today. I've noticed that I don't get hungry during the day anymore only at night around 5 or 6pm. except for yesterday I hadn't eaten anything past 7 the past few days and I wake up around 10 or 11am so that’s like a 15 hour fast every time right? If so yay! Maybe tomorrow I try a 24 hour fast but I am going to drink tea and a ton of water. We’ll see how that goes... wish me luck!!!

Xoxo 

Britt<3